I wasn't ready, I wasn't looking
That's when I stumbled into you
Out of the darkness into your arms when
The feeling hit me out of the blue
I'm terrified
Your lips fit perfect into mine
Look me in the eyes, don't look away
Baby, tell me you love me, I feel the same
I like the way you say my name
Tear my body to pieces and wear my pain,i'm obsessed
https://youtu.be/2jDbPmhRRXo?si=78T8I4f2YhREiURr
I knew you'd replace me it was a matter of time i knew it for over 12 months before you left i should of left on my own terms
still the same scared kid that i was way back then now i'd give anything to change how it happened
loss after loss like a chain reaction i can not be trusted to be kind to myself
another promise that i mean well all these things i do are f-ucking my health its getting bad i think i need help
i never meant for you to run away i just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain
and when everything goes wrong i hope youd be here
now i only see you in my dreams or with my eyes closed I was such a fool for you nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you
i'm not your problem anymore so you can have my heart still beating out my torso
everything i've lost is coming back to haunt me
This isn't how its suppose to be thought that i could stand tall on my own to feet I cant
I wonder a lot if you still think about me i'm running out of ways to say that i hate myself n who i've became tried to cover the pain but the broken shards are showing through the holes i've burned into
my sleeves so throw me a rope because i feel like im drowning
i dont like myself anymore think i've changed, I think im going straight to hell for those two years i'm a loser and i know it if you didnt know im sad then you must be new here stay glued to my computer writing sad songs n playing first person shooters, my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
who would of thought that these drugs wouldn't numb all the pain
https://youtu.be/rokcssds9EQ?si=z4TCaICfd3CdXFjs

https://youtu.be/LWVoo0lzhhs?si=7rB56gEqojzNfJf4
You were nothing more to me
Than when you loved me in my dreams
Still dreamin' about you
You know I'm crazy about you
There is nothing more to me than you
I died that day you left my room in tears
it didnt have to end like this with you


https://youtu.be/M0vOBKRL6MI?si=pwnsFBbY_90EqA8p
'Cause I fell in love so blindly
is it so hard to call me?
And I feel low like nightly
But you're holdin' on so tightly
In the morning, I feel like I am nothing
And everybody hurts me
Too used to people leaving
No wonder I'm not hеaling
You don't gotta lie to me, you can tell me, I know I'm the worst
I feel so bad when you cry to me, I know that it hurts
Is it real when you tell me it's forever?
You were on me fuc=king every night
Sweating through the signs
You look so good in white
We do this every time
So baby let me go
I'll see you after I die
The last light
Will fuc-king let me know
I wasted my whole life
And really baby you're a monster
I was in love with that
https://youtu.be/bQp4x6dk3vY?si=MzH6lUpbO3kamwPY
Put me through the pain
I wanna watch while you leave
All this crying won't make you honest
I can't be what you need
Look in my eyes, for once
I want you to tell me I'm never enough
Bite through my neck 'til I'm covered in blood
Want you to hold me tight And give me some scars to remember you by
https://youtu.be/MQ8F3BKaIrA?si=oEtaNtDILA3NPjaY
It doesn't really get better
That's the lesson I learned
Now I wait for the day that I turn one with the earth
I just love to sit and watch it burn out
I know I'll die if I ever let my guard down
There's a creature waiting by to take my heart out
dont push me aside
It's everything I want, to be good in your eyes
You still refuse to taper off into anything that's too much for you to handle
Life spent on a gamble
I'll tell you right now, light a candle in our name
If the ship goes down, we'll celebrate the same
Where was doubt when all of this was nothing more than ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥?
Where was fear when all of this was nothing more than fun?
We fought our way for nothing to making just the best of it
We've scratched and clawed at relevance to do what we have done
It's okay to admit that we have done better than what they thought that we could scrape up
It's a shame to think that even though "the best" is a subjective term, people hold you to a standard without understanding
It's fuc-ked
I was a deer in your headlights
You hit the gas and never did turn back
How would my life be
If you hit the brakes instead of me?
I wasn’t myself
In our last conversation
You filled in words
When I put hesitations
You hung up and I hung my head
Three years ended in one second
We were withering
Like flowers dead on the concrete
Your name’s still lingering
Like my secondhand smoke on your old jeans
The pictures of our past torn
Buried in your junk drawer
https://youtu.be/zjmayULQGds?si=cgBRhjkF4_oj4OKH
https://youtu.be/0H3CLZBNjBs?si=slkCp89zCIL0M6xf